Thank you Miranda for your kind words. It helps everyone a lot. Sometimes being reminded that you are not alone in this makes a big difference. Meditation can be very helpful. Try to pull up a “better feeling thought” when you notice the upstream ones coming in. There is a good meditation app for phone or desktop at
http://www.abraham-hicks.com. I like the one called the Vortex. It has four different short (10-15 minutes each)meditations to use.